Poor me

My sister is coming back to Malaysia soon. Its a good news and a bad news as well. The good news is i'll be able to see my niece and nephew. The bad part is since my brother is using my sisters car. So he has to return it to her. Thus, i'll have to let my brother use the car im driving now. Bcos my brother is still studying at UTHM while me, a graduated who is going to NZ in a few months. Soon, i wont have a car. And guess what? I have to cancel my plan of working as a school teacher temporarily bcos i wont have a car! Can you believe it? coz i cant!

How i met my Sakinah. How i fallen in love with her (part 4)

Several months passed by, nothing much going on between us. 9th April 2009, i went to the UK to visit my sister in Nottingham. I stayed there for 3 months. Before going to the UK, i told Sakinah that i was coming. Again, I asked her if i come to Scotland, would she be my tour guide. I wasnt serious back then. But she said it would be wonderful if i come. While i was in the Nottingham, i diligently stalked her friendster again. In fact, she started to give comments on my photos taken in the UK. You know reading those comments were like a hope for me. A sign that she's actually gave a damn about me. And we started to chat again. I still remember she told me how much she missed KFC etc..and how has she forgotten the warmness and humidity in Malaysia. She hasnt gone back for 4 years. Everyday when i woke up, i would turn on my laptop hoping to see "Sakinah Omar is online" or "Sakinah omar has sent you a comment" in my email. When i saw those, this is how i felt like http://9gag.com/gag/3008482

The feeling i felt back then, sweet and bitter at the same time. I felt so happy that i could die every time we had conversation. But indescribable seed of sorrow in my heart trying to accept the fact that in reality her heart belongs to someone else. Not me. But i kept it very well. I did not let her know. That's the problem with me. Always falling for the wrong one. I havent been in love for so long but suddenly when it does, its a wrong one. I do not know how to describe it, Have you guys listened to Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly. That is exactly how i felt about her.

Until one day i decided i wanted to go to Scotland. I wanted to see her. At the same time i could go sightseeing. So going for holidays in Scotland as an excuse to see her. Perfect! I had a plan. A perfect plan. Think its a suicide plan.

Am i being greedy or opportunist?

My sister at Aussie invited me to stay with her at Newcastle. She said the pay is good. Her husband is working at the farm eggs and the salary is as twice as higher compare with New Zealand. At farm eggs for new workers they pay 19 AUD per hour, the pay is twice as higher on the weekends. I have already granted a New Zealand working holiday visa, but now should i wait for the Australia working holiday to open on July? I dont know. I just feel that if i have both Visas i can experience both countries and earn good money. What do you think? Am i being greedy or just being opportunist?

New Zealand - My dilemma

Im going to New Zealand soon for working holiday. But i havent bought the ticket yet. Actually im in a dilemma right now whether i should depart on March or May. The reason i'm delaying my departure is because i want to attend MARA examination for postgraduate scholarship. However, the competition is very high, thousands of applicants will be competing hence its difficult to get the scholarship. Actually its a win-loss situation, if i end up failed the exams, i will have to depart to New Zealand on May and during that period of time, its pretty hard to get jobs. If i dont attend the exams, i would be able to depart earlier which is on March where there are plenty of seasonal jobs available. So? Making a decision is fucking tough isnt it?

CGPA system in Malaysia

Higher Education Institutions in Malaysia apply the system of CGPA in their grading. However, this system is not equally synchronized in all universities. Certain Universities have set their "A" grade to 85 marks, most IPTAs only required 80 or even 75 marks to obtain A. In the end, most students from IPTA tend to achieve better CGPA because of the lower grading set up. How is this possible?

Love is a like a butterfly

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush. Hold it too loose, it'll fly."

Regret

During school, i didnt play more, i didnt fight more, i didnt skip class more, i didnt skip school more and i regret it. Make your life colourful, experience everything and learn from them. Not only through books. Leave no regrets.

Congratulations, the best time of my life is over

Alhamdulillah, after a hard fought over the past 4 years i finally graduated in Bsc Civil Engineering. Should i cry or smile? I don't know. I'm feeling very sad to leave Uniten, my apartment and my friends. Congratulations, the best time of my life are over. I had the time of my life.

Refurbish

I will start to refurbish my blog soon! I've been overloaded with assignments and projects lately, but will start to activate my blog again!

How i met my Sakinah. How i fallen in love with her (part 3)

Hello everyone! Wow, its been a while. For the past few months i didnt have mood to write anything in my blog but suddenly tonight the mood came.

Ok lets move on.

Sakinah was the best thing ever happened in my life. I felt like the door was open for me to enter her life. Before meeting her i was heartbroken, i couldnt forget someone i love and i waited for her for 4 years. I was living in fantasy. But suddenly someone with the name Sakinah, she opened up my heart. I didnt know why and how but it just happened. I bet you guys know how it feels like when you fall in love for someone, all the feelings came back to me and they made me ALIVE! I stalked her Friendster everyday! So, now i have her Friendster and YM. But i forgot to add her at Myspace.

As her number 1 stalker i added her at Myspace but what i found was really shocking and it broke my heart,

"Sakinah Omar is in a relationship."

In that moment i felt like i was the loneliest person on earth. The first thing i did was to see who was the guy. I read all the comments between them. They were sweets. So sweets that you might get a diabetes. So what happened to me was, I completely lost hope. All my fantasies about being with her gone. And i decided, not to keep in touch with her.