Time is flowing so fast.Its already 2009 and the worst thing is i'm turning 21 in a few months.I listen closely to the feelings that have long been silenced.Its empty, cold and transparent.The tenderness in the past is locked in time.All that's left are sadness that cannot be dispersed.But the happiness buried beneath it that guides me to keep on living with happiness.Sometimes it hurts, most of the time it brings happiness.I did a lot of things that i didn't proud of, and my past saddens me.I don't look back as i see a lot of people in front of me.I ask myself, why is it so hard to fall in love?Just like those people.How does it possible to fall in love for several times in a short period of time?Just like them.I really don't have the ability, to fall in love by just looking at them(girls) in one minute.Furthermore ,i do not know them.Or maybe, i'm just too afraid to fall in love.Of course no,HELL NO! So why? Why is it so hard to start loving someone? Once again, i listen closely to the feelings that have long been silenced. No answers, unless another question.Can a heart that has been thoroughly wounded continue to love someone? I have cried ,but unable to bury my guilty.When its time to laugh,i share everything to anyone but when i feel down, i turn my back to isolate the loneliness.Its been a year, i've been here.Surrounded by so many girls that i can't even remember tehir names.But not even once, i fell in love.Someday, if i ever fall in love again, i'll try as hard as i can to not let her down.
Dibalik awan by Peterpan